We were married for 15 years, we raised two children together. When my husband came home one day and said he couldn’t stand “this house game” any longer, I couldn’t believe it. I was sure he had met someone. I think it would have been a relief. The truth turned out to be even more painful – he would rather be alone than live with a family any longer.
“He had a wife and two kids. He ruined everything”
He turned 45 and suddenly decided: I’m going to be selfish. He said that he hadn’t felt anything for me for years, that he couldn’t think about the kids any more and that he had to finally start living. After the divorce, he went on a two-month trip around Europe. When he came back, he started going to the gym and God knows what else. Sometimes I see the crap he writes on Facebook and I can’t believe that these are the words of a grown man. A man who had a wife and two kids. He ruined everything.
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I have a lot of regret and anger that he behaved this way, but I am even sadder that I was not able to be as strong as he was and I wasted years of my life. I was not able to get back on my feet for a long time after the divorce. I saw him jumping for joy and I withered. I could not eat or sleep, I did not want to live. On the other hand, I had to take care of the house and the children. For their sake, I had to pretend that everything was fine. It was only when I went to therapy that I started to get back on my feet. I regret that I waited so long.
“I don’t recognize this woman”
Now the kids are growing up and I’m approaching 50 and I’m wondering, who am I? I don’t recognize this woman. I used to be full of energy, smile from ear to ear, have a million ideas and a group of friends. Today I am a nervous middle-aged lady who finds no joy in anything. I worry that I will never get back the years I lost. And yet I could start all over again… Maybe I could even fall in love?
Source: Gazeta
Bruce is a talented author and journalist with a passion for entertainment . He currently works as a writer at the 247 News Agency, where he has established himself as a respected voice in the industry.
