Although it seems that the holidays are a special time full of peace, joy and inner peace with family, for some people it is the most stressful time of the year, which is extremely painful. There are many reasons, and one of them was cited by our reader, who in a sincere letter to the editor of nazwa.gazeta.pl described how much she was afraid of the upcoming holidays. All because she was recently divorced, and the sadness, regret, pain and emptiness in her heart is unimaginably difficult to swallow.
“I am most afraid of the upcoming holidays. I don’t know how I will cope with loneliness”
I didn’t think I would ever become a divorcee. When I married a wonderful guy, I thought we would live in a fairy tale. Reality quickly verified the plans, because first I lost my job, and then he fell into alcoholism. And although he managed to get rid of stimulants, we drifted a lot apart. A few years later I found out he was cheating on me. I filed for divorce and in July 2023 we got a divorce. He behaved with class because he admitted his guilt, and since we had no children, everything ended quickly. At first I felt relief, but now I know that it won’t be easy for me, especially since my friends turned away from me and I don’t keep in touch with my family. What I’m most afraid of is the upcoming holidays. I don’t know how I will cope with loneliness. I associated this time only with joy, and now I feel sorry for myself because it is the first Christmas that I am not looking forward to. Divorce made all the magic disappear.
“It hurts me to see people smiling, looking at the falling snow or shopping and waiting for Advent.”
Sometimes I wonder if maybe if I put more heart into my and my ex-husband’s relationship, he would be different for me? I keep thinking about it and I hope that I will finally find the answer to the question. And that’s still not happening. It pains me to see smiling people looking at the falling snow or shopping and waiting for Advent. I’m not waiting for it, because I will certainly feel this lack of company extremely painfully. How to live? Do you have any advice for getting back on your feet and going to Midnight Mass alone?
Beata.
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Source: Gazeta
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