“I’m 30 years old and I feel old. A house, a job, children and a loan for 30 years are the only things I live for”

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I’m 30 years old and I feel old. Home, work, children and a 30-year loan are all I live by. I am terrified that it all looks like this, because as a small child I imagined a completely different lifestyle. We live in times of inflation, where everyone saves for their dreams. Unfortunately, their implementation is impossible when a loan appears in the household. Unfortunately, you can’t live with dignity without it, especially if you have children. This life scares me and I feel it will only get worse.

“I don’t have time for myself. I can barely go to the beautician to get my nails done.”

The worst thing is the daily monotony of the day and the constant repetition of the same activities. In the evening you come home and have to go to sleep, because the next day it’s back to work, children, home and responsibilities. I do not have time for myself. I can barely make it to the beautician to get my nails done. The worst time is during the holidays when children return to school. I’m sick of it already. As soon as I go to bed, tears come to my eyes. And it’s like that every day. I don’t have support from my husband because he runs away to work. This is not how I imagined life at 30.

I often wonder what happiness is. I feel like I’ve never experienced it. I see my friends enjoying life and I feel very bad about it. I didn’t expect that I would be a loser in life. How to deal with all this? I’m losing the meaning of life and I have no one to talk to about it. This is all too heavy for me. Do you have similar thoughts as me?

Olga.

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