“I can’t afford an all-inclusive holiday with friends. I’m ashamed of them”

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I have just graduated from high school and will soon start moving to Warsaw. I got into law studies at one of the private universities. I will start a real student adventure there, which I can’t wait for. Unfortunately, learning costs a lot. In addition, there are the costs of renting an apartment and meals. That’s not my biggest concern though. I am constantly thinking about what to say to my friends who are rubbing their hands together for a trip abroad at the end of August. I’m fucking stupid to say I just don’t have the money and I have other priorities right now.

“Everyone thinks that if I can afford such studies, I will also find money for a trip to Turkey”

I realize that if I had asked my parents for money for the trip, they would have given it to me, but I won’t. It’s just unethical to me. I don’t know how I would live knowing that not only do they provide me with education and everything I need to live, but I also ask them for money for my pleasures. I can’t afford an all-inclusive holiday with friends. I am ashamed in front of them, because everyone thinks that if I can afford such studies, I will also find money for a trip to Turkey. I didn’t work after graduation because I was taking care of my sick grandmother.

“Maybe it’s trivial, but it complicates my life”

I am sad because I know that the whole team is going on this trip. If someone doesn’t go and breaks, they will probably be talked about. We have been planning this holiday for a long time, which is why there is so much confusion about it. Everyone says that we will recharge our batteries there for the new academic year. But I don’t feel like I should go there. I feel compelled and a lot of fear.

I’m afraid to say no, because they’ll start theories that he’s lying. What if I don’t go and they say I’m boring? I’m sitting in front of my laptop and writing these few words, I’m wondering what I should do. Please advise how can I get out of this situation. It may be trivial, but it complicates my life.

Eve.

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